coming home soon

[Kobau]

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K today is hard since i'm not a vday person really. but i haven't seen my bf in close to 2 months. He'll be back this coming Sunday nite, i won't see him till Monday night though unless of course they schedule him to work on base Monday, then i'll have to wait till tues morn....
but with it being vday, i'm really really really missing him!!! <IMG src="smileys/smiley19.gif" border="0">
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[*Giddy Up*]

Awww! Is there no way you could give him a call? What about write him a letter? I know he won't get it right away, but then you could write out your feelings now to make you feel better and then he can read it either when he comes to see you, or when he gets it via mail.
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[Kobau]

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well he is with his bro tonight, we normally talk nightly. But because of the anniversary his bro got tickets to rascal flatts in order to keep his mind off it.
He might still call tonight, but i have a funny feeling that if he does, i'm gonna be teary, and i hate crying when talking to him cause he hates not being able to do anything to make me feel better and stop crying!....</TD></TR>
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[Bluebird]

Kobau - I haven't seen my bf in over a month....I ate a microwave dinner last night and he sent me an e-card!?! <IMG src="smileys/smiley5.gif" border="0">
Anyway, he is coming to stay with me this weekend for 2 weeks (he got a co-op position with a guy not far from here), and then he mentions last night (this is great) - "another guy at my school got the same co-op as me, do you think he could stay at your place too?"
Ummmmm, NO!!!!!!!!!!! I have a one bedroom apartment, and can hardly afford to feed myself, let alone THREE people!&nbsp; Jeez, there goes our belated v-day plans out the window!&nbsp; So I told him no, and that his friend would have to find somewhere else to stay.....I felt kind of mean, but COME ON!!!!!

[Eileen]

Chee BB that is cruel and unusual punishment that your BF has faced you with....like where does he think that his buddy would sleep, eat and be all this time...some guys never think past this minute.&nbsp; I am glad that you stood your ground.&nbsp;
Kobau...I know that it may seem like you will never see BF again, but the time will come, hang in there girl...think of the hugs and kisses that will be there when the time does arrive...you can do it.K..<IMG src="smileys/smiley2.gif" border="0">

[Ruth]

I wish my SO would give me the chance to miss him!<img border="0" src="smileys/smiley17.gif" border="0">

[Kobau]

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well, guys i still miss him, but at this moment i'm in limbo in my mood......He has a gitness test coming up in April, so he is working on lossing weight... needs about 20 lbs to go... and it is great he is focused on it etc.. the prob is that while i want to support him, he gets extremely self centered and that makes me feelalienated.. Tonight talking on the phone he said he would be here sunday I think great! be nice to get to hug etc.... then he says something along the lines of he is thinking on staying on base at his buddies alot so that he is near the running track and gym etc Makes me go "ok, fine whatever" then he mentioned that he will be doing atkins when he comes back and that that means if i want to eat anything other than what he is eating i'l have to eat somewhere out of his sight! now i can be supportive but i'm sorry that is pushing my limit! I'm supportive, hell i'll join him on a version of atkins, but to say what he said pushed the wrong button on me...
I may miss the guy but at this exact moment my brain is saying WTF? you keep talking like this and my next comment will be, just let me find an apartment and i'll be out of your way completely so you can focus on yourself!!... I mean i know it is the 1st week of my pills(bc) and i get a lil more sensitive that first week, so i may be over reacting and all.... but umm i'm annoyed at this moment at him...
*sigh* he'll be home sunday, and hopefully i'm just being moody right now and things will be talked about and sorted out...... yeesshhh... sorry for the rant/vent<IMG src="smileys/smiley5.gif" border="0"></TD></TR>
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[Eileen]

hmm K, I would sort of feel the same way that you do...pills or no pills (in my case no pills) lol but then maybe he is at the end of his rope to there are two sides to this, It may be best to wait and see what Sunday brings.&nbsp; good luck K<IMG src="smileys/smiley1.gif" border="0">

[Kobau]

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Yup Eileen, the waiting till sunday is my plan, plus i am feeling better about it today... Talked to a friend and one of my sisters and they reminded me that many(ok most but maybe the exceptions on on this bb<IMG src="smileys/smiley2.gif" border="0">) men can only do the one track mind at a time whereas most women are thinking about 4-10 different things! And i realise that this is how my bf is... he can only focus on one or two things max at one set time, so last night he was focused on his weight and all that (which is understandable caue while i love him the way he is, losing 20 would help his health etc) whereas the night before he was focused on a totally different topic, the rascall flatts concert he'd just been to...With every person there are quirks you eith decide you can live with or decide they are to much for you.... so far i can live with this ithink<IMG src="smileys/smiley2.gif" border="0">
I need him home and settled back into work routine i think. He still needs a kick in the pants i think but i'm sure he'll get that<IMG src="smileys/smiley17.gif" border="0"></TD></TR>
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[Eileen]

yes, the kick in the pants will always be lurking in the corner somewhere, at least the threat of one, always keep the biggest sharpest toed boots in sight near the door where it is always a reminder.&nbsp; Something like the dog seeing the broom as soon as he enters the room, they just need that little reminder at times.<IMG src="smileys/smiley2.gif" border="0">

[Kobau]

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<TD id=HB_Focus_Element vAlign=top width="100%" background="" height=250 UNABLE="off">lol Eileen, yup they do need a reminder at times! course he had a good reminder before xmas... I&nbsp; told him "i know i can live without you, and you know i can, but i'd prefer not to have to" you could see him realising wha ti mean, and then it's been 2 months since we had a miscommunication<IMG src="smileys/smiley2.gif" border="0">... he'll be good and so will I once he is home and not 1500 miles away.. it makes it hard to talk when you are that far apart...</TD></TR>
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[Ruth]

Yep, Kobau, I'd have been a little ticked off too. Not kick his ass out the door ticked, but definitely peeved. I can understand his reasoning, but he could have been a little more diplomatic!

[Kobau]

Ruth that is exactly what bothered me, the lack of diplomacy!!!
Thank heavens i realise that he sometimes forgets that he is talking to a woman, not a guy, and not someone ranked under him in the military! he knew i was annoyed when my comment was "yes sir" the tone told him he'd po'd me! I love the guy even when he is a twit, but once in a while he just pushes me to where i'm truly annoyed at him!!!

[Ruth]

My dad was in the military and has absolutely no sense of diplomacy! Any guy is prone to twittiness, after all, they're not women.

[Kobau]

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<TD id=HB_Focus_Element vAlign=top width="100%" background="" height=250 UNABLE="off">Ruth you are so right! once again. And i did know what i was getting into dating him, since my dad is ex military and while for the most part he is diplomatic at times he is ummmm very untactful!</TD></TR>
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[Eileen]

Well let's face it girls, sometimes it is the guys twitness, and lack of diplomacy, and rough cutness etc etc....that attracts us to the guys in the first place Oh me life is soooo confusing sometimes<IMG src="smileys/smiley5.gif" border="0">

[Ruth]

There is a psychological theory out there that what attracts us to the man in the first place is what will end up repelling us the most.

[Kobau]

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i have to believe it... cause most of the time what made me first like a guy is what i hate in the end.. but counting wha ti loved about this guy from day one was his honesty and sincerity, i'm hoping i don't end up hating that!<IMG src="smileys/smiley3.gif" border="0">
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[Kobau]

#ed_op#DIV#ed_cl#ok, paul is home!~ and when i saw him Sunday i didn't even get to get all the way into the apartment before i got a huge hug and kiss#ed_op#IMG src="http://forums.equestrianconnection.com/richedit/smileys//embarrassed.gif"#ed_cl#&nbsp;and informed that he missed me and that 2 months was to damn long...#ed_op#/DIV#ed_cl##ed_op#DIV#ed_cl#So guess i should have realised he was just stressing when he was annoying me on the phone!#ed_op#/DIV#ed_cl#